I didn't realise how much a weight I was carrying until I let go of shame and guilt. Guilt for arguing with my mum in the months before she died. Guilt for being angry at her for dying. Guilt for being manipulated into having an abortion. Guilt for having a baby two years later. Guilt for not loving my baby straight away. Guilt for loving the second one instantly. Guilt for working while they were little. Guilt for splitting up with their dad. Guilt for quitting work to study. Guilt for not being able to afford expensive Christmas presents.…